consider the ravens
you are valuable than they
you’ll be provided
Should I still be a stay at home mom despite of our financial situation? That is the question I have to ask myself after receiving a small amount from my husband this week.
He does not even make it to 5K – our sufficient weekly budget to live better here in the City. I sighed, knowing that I can make better than this if I am the one who’s working.
Will this be the end of my martyrdom? Would I choose to work now?
Continue reading “5 reasons why I should still be a stay at home mom even when we barely afford it”
continued love in marriage
happens in your hand
Maybe you are now beginning to see the things that you are too blind to see before.
His vices and bad attitudes suddenly become apparent to you. Maybe you are now noticing the darker side of him like laziness, eating too much, not liking to improve himself, not caring to his physical appearance, and being disorderly with his things in the house. All of the things that you have admired in him are now being replaced with the bad attitude that you seemed to ignore before.
Much worse, he’s so rigid and hostile when you remind him to change. What will you do now?
Although my husband is a Catholic and I am a Born Again Christian, faith never becomes an issue with us. It is because I am careful not to try to convince him to accept my belief. I don’t want to evangelize him or tell him anything about salvation. I just stayed where I am and do what I need to do as a Christian believer. Although, I am inviting him to go to church with us and most of the time he accompanied us, I never attempted to touch the part in his spiritual life that only the Lord can touch.
Continue reading “how to accept your husband and save your marriage for last”
I’m the butterfly–
gorgeous creature in your palm
vast canvas of life
Now that you all know I am staying home, I have decided to embrace it for the moment until of course God change the course of my life. By embracing I mean totally and wholly giving myself to my role as a wife and a mother. This means totally leaving the past behind no matter how hurting and how I missed my work.
Just yesterday, my mother’s package arrived from Saudi. These are big box of groceries, a drum of clothes, shoes and bags and another box of curtains, pillow covers and bed sheets. It arrived at around 8:30 am just when we are about to go to school to get my kid’s report cards.
I am so very grateful with all these blessings. This comes right on time, just when we need them because my hubby has to start working again and we need supplies until he receive his first salary.
However, as I am unpacking all the clothes and bags, I can’t help but felt an ache inside me. Those clothes are meant for office, for a working mother. The shoes, the blazers, the very attractive bags suits a working woman I used to be. That made me teary eyed.
Continue reading “4 life’s essentials that a stay-at-home woman should focus on to gain her self-fulfillment (even when she’s nailed at home)”
silent tears bursting
the clown’s smile faded faster
in that sweet event
This is a personal blog post. Please check my helpful posts if you are not comfortable reading personal accounts. Thanks.
By the way, if you did not yet see my free e-book please have a peek here.
Last Tuesday, I have attended Moving-up event and today, Hans graduation. Hywell is in Kinder and Hans is grade six. Both of them are studying in Rizal Makati Elementary School.
To document this most important event in my life (for my own benefit lol!) I will post today some of the random thoughts and lessons I learned during the time I am in those occasions at school.
Continue reading “random thoughts, rants and lessons from my sons’ graduations”
allies of convenience gained
What is the single, material thing in your life that is constantly present that reminds you that you never lack of good things from the Lord?
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The whole day today, I have busied myself experimenting with creating E-book as my way of thanking you for being here.
Among all of my other blogs, Cheerful Woman amazes me with lots of readers and likes. I really do not know how to thank you so I created a book for you to download for free.
7 Days Encouraging Haiku and Verses consists of encouraging verses and well-thought out Haiku (just like what you always see here). The goal is for you to have something to ponder upon this week. Something that you can read that will surely give you calm and peaceful reading.
Here’s what prompts me to experiment creating e-book:
- It is my dream to really create one that I can give away and sell one day.
- I would love to explore other avenues where I can express my creativity.
- I really want to publish a book to share the wisdom I am gaining through reading and my personal experience.
I hope that by doing this, I can encourage you also to try. To be bold enough in trying other avenues that are inspiring, helpful and will give you a sense of pride and fulfillment.
7 Days Encouraging Haiku and Verses is not a perfect E-book as it is my very first try of creating it. Thanks to Beacon.by for giving me a chance to make my first step of E-book Creation come true. In fact, the last part is incomplete and I know I have a lot more to learn. Even so, I am still very proud doing it in a day. I feel very much productive this Good Friday, wohoo!
Here is the link.
So, friends let me know how do you find the book. If you find it hard to access, please email me at espinajennifer143(at)gmail(dot)com. I will personally give you the link.
candle bare flames
blackness arc of brilliant gold
stray embers they see
Boredom slowly taking its toll on me. It is creeping inside my body, squeezing my heart and made me pull my hair one by one. What I will be doing now that I have to stay at home? WHAT WILL I GONNA DO NOW?!!!
You know, I get used to working 12 hours a day before. I am a very workaholic person. Now I am here? The whole day today, I spent watching drama on TV. I am crying the whole afternoon until my eyes gets bulky. WAAAA!
Continue reading “why I write my goals even if I am now a certified stay-at-home who have an unknown future?”
lips smeared of chartreuse-
a rose be-speckled with dew
wondrin’ youth leaves me
Now that I am staying home for good, I am wondering what to do with my make-up, shoes and clothes I bought during office days? Can I still wear them at home? Can I still look my best even if all I have to do is wash the clothes, wash the dishes, and scrub my CR’s filthy floor?
Continue reading “5 reasons why a stay-at-home must look her best every day”
black hole in my head
a void, swallowing my hopes
I am out of the office officially now. Yesterday, I have decided not go back at all. I have just made sure I will get my salary this 3/25. I am really, really happy that what I got as I leave is the same amount my husband got when he lost his job. That’s enough for us to float for three months back then.
But you know what? I am so afraid like I have to see the horrifying Michael Myers in John Carpenter’s film Halloween (I’m not yet born when this film was created). Well, I don’t know where we go from here now that I lost my best source of income. The income that gives us food on the table, appliances, clothes, groceries and sense of pride. Now it’s gone.
After leaving the office, I ate Lumpiang Sariwa in Goldilocks, Market-market. From there, I am seeing SM Aura where my office is… Gosh! I wanna cry.
Continue reading “how to get back to being a stay-at-home mom after losing your job?”
a contemptuous looks
and gales of laughter to come
it whooshes past me
Don’t nurture grudges in your heart. It can kill you.
I have to remind myself that today while my manager talked to my colleagues during our huddle. I heard him promised them a lot…
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