Posted in Faith, Reflection

the single thing in your life that never runs out

a transitory

allies of convenience gained

daily provisions

What is the single, material thing in your life that is constantly present that reminds you that you never lack of good things from the Lord?

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Posted in Family, parenting

to a mother who forgets

Kitten Haiku

a clingy small child

plays silently like kitten

I’ll miss crazily

He has this mannerism that before he sleeps, he playfully pinches my elbow. Whenever we walked together, he’s fond of kissing and pinching my elbow as if it is the most beautiful elbows he’d ever seen.

He’s just that ever since he’s a super cute baby but… that annoys me and made me feel ashamed. Moreover, his sharp fingernails cut deep in my charcoal colored elbows and leave contrasting white marks. Golly!

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Posted in Faith, Work

on the pointless road

Knife cuts deeply inside

A carve to a trunk of tree

Healed but stays for life

Walking like I am going nowhere today. My shoulders are down and I was in between happy of being free again from the chain of my work and lonely because my money decreases back to its original status when we can’t even let both ends meet.

A lot of things run through my mind. Shall we return to the province and call this quit? Shall I apply there or shall I stay here?

Life in the workplace suddenly becomes dark especially now that I hear from Boss P that I am a useless part of our company. Staying there further could make them all the more hate me… and I, I am in the clouds of doubt.

Where the Lord does wants me to go this time? What awaits me right around the corner? What is there at the end of this long, long dark tunnel?

Aahh! I don’t know. I would like to simply throw all my weight to the Lord and stay there momentarily. Let me taste peace once in a while my mind was darkened by the persecution that’s happening in the workplace.

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After all, no matter how I am heavy laden, I knew by heart that I can trust the Lord for my future. I can trust Him for the provision.

Even so, I am more agitated nowadays than I was before. I easily got angry to the loves of my life.

I am currently into gathering the broken pieces of me that seems to be impossible to bring back into place.

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But Jesus heals the broken heart. The process maybe painful – from the cut of the knife, to the blood that falls, down to the process of healing… it takes time. Now I am grieving over that pain I gathered lately but then again faith keeps me alive.

As usual, I am rebelling against those who hurt me. I am carving plans of little revenge against those inutile leaders who crashed my soul into pieces.

But God said… “Stand still and know that I am God. Revenge belongs to me.” As her child, I am trying to listen amidst the noise. Amidst the turbulence inside. God said, “My sheep hear my voice and I know them and they follow me.”

 

 

Posted in Work

what to promise yourself when Life is Hard?

 

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When the time comes that you feel like life is hard and stressful, promise yourself to stay just one more day. I don’t know how it works but it works!

I can describe my work now as “toxic.” Higher management does not care anymore! I feel being used most of the time. I am always at the bridge of giving up.

In times like these, I kept telling myself, “Stay… just one more day.” And before I know it, that one day becomes a week. A week becomes month and months and a year.

God supplies the grace I need to stay just one more day on the job…

“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” – Matthew 6:34

I believe you, too. One day, you will find, you surpass those hard and difficult days unknowingly just because you stay… just one more day.